Everyone’s Guardian Angel

Everyone's Guardian Angel

“You look like an angel,” words said by many of my ex-lovers, friends, and family members.

Ironically, I feel like this statement more pertains to my character and spirit. I have always had a pure heart and demeanor. Somehow I always seem to be trusted with people’s deepest and darkest secrets, as well as being a safe place for guidance.

“Angels are spirits, but it is not because they are spirits that they are angels.  They become angels when they are sent.  For the name angel refers to their office, not their nature.  You ask the name of this nature, it is spirit; you ask its office, it is that of an Angel, which is a messenger.” – St.  Augustine.

That quote I most identify with because it’s not that I feel conceited or am overly obsessed with myself over people calling me “angel-like.” I actually hate the spotlight. I shy away from it and think “who. me?”

I’m simply the messenger. I feel like my soul has lived and seen terrible things in order for me to be there and have the emotional capability to help others.

I think that I just catch the signs that the universe has placed around me, connect with my higher source, God, and follow my instincts.

Whether it be me having a dream about a long lost friend and then I’m drawn to reconnect with her and find she is in grave need of advice, or just me sitting on the train next to a woman who feels comfortable enough to share her life story and heartaches with me, or me being drawn to smile and give a compliment to a stranger, who later tells me they’ve been in need of a friend.

In relationships, I’m usually the first girl a man has felt vulnerable enough to cry to. I usually relay the lesson that men can cry too and that they suffer from the same insecurities everyone else does and that it is perfectly okay for men to feel sad or depressed as long as they ask for help.

It is a gift I was born with – this overwhelming sense of understanding of other people’s emotions like they are my own and knowing the exact words to say to heal their grief. My intuition is always a 10 and sometimes I even surprise myself with my ability to know exactly what is wrong with a friend, a family member, a lover, or even a stranger.

I just follow the synchronizations around me. Signs are placed everywhere for me. For example, my sister’s favorite song comes on and I think, maybe I should check in on her. All of a sudden, my stomach drops as if I can feel her sadness and anxiety, even though all she said was “hey sis.”

I say, “You need to drop whatever dead weight isn’t helping you grow and achieve your goals, remember that you have a purpose in this world and those that don’t see it or appreciate it need to go.”

She immediately replies,”You are so special, how did you know? I haven’t even talked about this with you,” and rants on about the average Joe that can’t seem to value her worth.

In my opinion, it is very simple and anyone can tap into their inner God to find the answers to their questions, or find someone else that can lead the way. I wouldn’t call myself extraordinary from the rest, but then again I can’t escape the constant angelic compliments and comparisons.

So, I embraced it. “ANGEL ENERGY” is tatted on my arm to remind me of my natural “God-given” gift.

If there is one thing this has taught me, it’s that everyone needs the same thing at some point in their life; someone to listen to them, to acknowledge their pain, and to let them know things will be okay. Another thing I noticed is that we all have shadows and demons or, in other words, insecurities that we must face and overcome.

We are all interconnected in this universe, so it is important to look at the signs and the messages that lead you to the right path.

“Do not neglect hospitality, for through it some have unknowingly entertained angels.”  -Hebrews 13:2