A lot of people considered March 2020 a bad time in their lives which to be fair it was for everyone. However, it let me open my eyes to many things such as if I was truly happy with my current situation at my current high school. Being in lock down opened my eyes to who really are my true friends within this life. So, I talked to many of my friends and then my parents about my decision to leave my current high school.
My friends of course were very happy with it, however, it took my parents a little more convincing than I expected. To be fair it came as a shock to everyone especially my parents since they were huge fans of the school. However, they wanted to make sure I wasn’t making a mistake and weren’t acting off raw emotions. Which I completely understood and honestly agreed with.
As months passed and summer came around, the decision started to have a time limit. After weeks and months of reflection, I knew that leaving at the time my soure of unhappiness was the right one. Looking back almost five years now, that decision to this day was the best decision I have yet to make while committing to Mercy is a close second. Deciding to transfer high schools taught me so much more than I would have ever expected.
It molded and crafted me into the person I still to this day am trying to become. It taught me to be confident, and resilient, and overcome this social anxiety I was battling with. I cared so much about the popularity aspect within my life, that I hoped people thought highly of me. I overcame this by just maturing and not caring what people may think about me.
The only opinion that mattered to me was the friends and family I valued in my life. I started to be more myself, I started to show a different side of myself that I haven’t before. I started to show the Marvel-obsessed, goofy laughter, and family-loving person I am.
Before I made the switch of high schools, I would never show this side of me to the public. I didn’t think it would be “loved” or “received” well by the public. I thought so low of myself that I had to show this side of me that I was just a stereotypical lacrosse kid. I have yet to be as wrong as I was back then.
I would never consider the way I was in my first two years of high school a regret. This is because it turned me into the person I am happy to be today. I don’t look back and cringe at my past mistakes. I do everything within my power to prevent them from ever repeating some of those again.
So, yeah of course I was scared and nervous before starting the new year. This is because there could be a chance that this was a huge mistake. However, the second I stepped foot onto the new campus that warm September morning in 2020, I knew I was right.
Sometimes, you have to close a bad chapter in your life to start an amazing one. Those last two years of high school were only something I could have never dreamed of. It taught me to become comfortable while being uncomfortable.
If you are having a bad time or scared to turn the page to your next chapter. Just face the fear and turn the page. Who knows -it may just be the best one yet.
