To my friends in Heaven,

I honestly don’t know where to start, there is so much I want to say, so much that was left unsaid, and so many things left undone.

My biggest regret is not hanging out with you as much as I could’ve, I always thought to myself “we can hang out next time.” Only for there to not be a next time. I should’ve hugged you more, I should’ve told you I love you and that you’re a great friend.

I remember the day we first met; you were not shy at all. You made me come all the way out of my shell and by the end of the night we were such close friends. It was like I knew you my whole life.

The whole night I was worried about getting in trouble by my mother for staying out all night and you kept telling me to relax and live life. Trust me that story will never go untold. I’m going to tell it to my kids, my grandkids, my great grandkids.

It’s my favorite memory with us, it’s one of my favorite memories ever. Thank you for being a part of it.

I am never that comfortable with someone I just met but I felt comfortable with you. I knew just off of the vibe you gave me and how kind you were that you were a great person.

You deserved a longer life, you deserved to see your 18^th birthday, and your graduation. You were so young, and I don’t understand why it had to be you, I don’t think I’ll ever understand.

I should’ve told you how much I enjoyed your company. I wish you were still here, you’d be so proud of the woman I’ve become.

I remember coming out of school and being told that you didn’t make it, I wanted it to be a prank so bad, I was in shock. You had so much to offer this world, and I’ll never get to tell you.

You always managed to put a smile on my face during my darkest moments, and we never had a dull moment together.

You’re one of the funniest, most amusing people to be around, thank you for all of the exciting moments. I speak as if you’re alive because you’re alive in my heart, you always will be.

I remember this one time you randomly sent me a voice note on Facebook, I was having an off day and you managed to make me smile. I sill listen to it every now and then. Just to hear your voice.

I look at our photos and I reminisce; we had some great times. I even reminisce about the times where we were so caught up in the moment that we forgot to take a picture.

I know life goes on and I’m living life as I should, but I can’t help but wonder what it would be like if you were still here. I have never stopped thinking about you, you have not been forgotten. You will never be forgotten.

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Another one, gone too soon, at such a young age. I remember when you would pick me up from school or you would wait for me to get out. The minute I walked out the building we would start play fighting.

I can still hear you yell out “Amber” just like you used to when you would see me, if you weren’t yelling along with me, you were yelling at me. You loved to annoy me and I loved to annoy you, that was our friendship.

I’ll never forget your dance breaks, you used to kill me with your dance moves, always looking to battle someone.

I remember this one day I was so depressed and I went over to your house and I could tell you knew something was up. You asked if I was okay and even though I lied and said I was, you didn’t force me to talk about it, you just made me laugh, and for that one night I forgot about everything, thanks to you.

Or that one night where we stood in your hallway for God knows how long and laughed. You were always making fun of my laugh but I knew It was all love.

You were such a ball of energy, and two balls of energy make a great dynamic duo. Thank you for being my best friend, even if it was for a day or for a month. You made my 9^th and 10^th grade year; it wouldn’t have been what it was if it wasn’t for you.

I remember a few days after, you passed away, I visited your candle light vigil in front of your old building, and as I was walking in, I hit my head on the metal bar in the entrance, my first thought was that you were up in Heaven laughing at my clumsiness. So yeah, thanks for that I needed to know you were there with me.

Keep watching over me guys, and make sure to save a spot up there for me, I’ll see you there.

To my dear friends in Heaven, I love you, and I miss you. Always and forever.